How do you know when you are ready?
When do you begin something new?
When is the "right time"?
From my calculations of the MANY things I've yet to begin, those ideas that have been sitting the back burner of my life, the time is always now. Or more likely...it was yesterday, so better just get going. What I've received in my meditations lately, and from the world around me, is the resounding message that we may not wake up motivated every single day to go at the work we have set forth, but the important thing, is to stay connected to the WHY and simply just begin. Now.
In 2018, I began my journey of consciously turning inward and looking at myself more deeply, my patterns, my unconscious limiting beliefs, and started implementing practices that shifted my awareness to the journey of self-discovery. I stepped into a program in Southern Brazil that my soul somehow found for me.
(Side story: No joke, I was working a great yoga job and setting up a life for myself in San Francisco, but was kept wide awake by spirit for 2 nights in a row, in what felt like years of therapy condensed into a window of 72 hours of sleeplessness, to examine all the areas of my life that felt out of alignment. Some little voice in my head had me looking at Brazil, Google searching the terms "yoga, spirituality, self-love, meditation" and somehow divinely was guided to the Heart Attack program at Rosemary Dream in Florianopolis, Brazil. When the soul knows, it knows. Trust it. )
After a month of deep deep diving into myself, unearthing so much of my being, the feedback that stuck with me from the quiet, sage-like coach of my program was: "You seem to know what to do, but you hesitate to just do it. Don't think so much, just do!"
So here I am, years later, finally just doing.
What was the catalyst for this? I was reading back some writing I wrote back in 2021 and it still held medicine for myself today. Two years later and I look at this piece of writing thinking, wow, I should have shared that then. Can anyone else relate?
I see this in so many aspects of my life, in my travels of the last 12 years of being nomadic. Why don't I have a blog or some sort of documentation of these experiences apart from my personal journaling? So many lessons and stories and highs and lows. I look at these experiences, see that I wish I had already started my travel documenting back then, get stuck in the shame spiral, and never start because some part of me wishes I had already started back then, so how to pick up the slack now?
Well, what I've come to recognize is that although there is distance between myself and some of those experiences, the real wisdom nuggets still ring true today. And our journey is forever continuing, so why not allow today to be the day that we begin again!
Looking across various aspects of life, where is the underlying desire that has been brewing and waiting for the "perfect moment" or "perfect version of myself" to begin? To begin being the Being I envision myself to be. To begin doing the projects I desire to do. To begin stepping into the life that I am not just existing in, but leading with joy, presence, and purpose.
Here we are, at the precipice of a new journey, unlocking the journey of sharing the sacred voice through written word. Of sharing truths, insights, aspirations, hopes, desires, challenges, the messy, the vulnerable, the confusion and the clarity, the serenity and all the ways love wants to flow through this divine channel. My intention and hope in sharing these words is multifold. For myself, it is to release, create space, create continuity, discover meaning, to embody the version of self that is transparent and honest with her growth, to be seen and heard fully. For others, it is an offering of myself and my experiences with the hope that they may touch you, so you feel less alone in your lows, and inspired to soar to your fullest expressions. So that perhaps the medicine of these experiences that I have been blessed to have serve more than just my own self-transformation, but that there may be some nuggets that allow for a shifting of consciousness, an opening of the heart, and a softening in the mind, so that we may awaken together on this journey of expansion. For the collective, it is a transmission of the heart. Which, regardless of wherever we are in the journey, is offered as a gift. The pureness of the journey is precious, the seeking, the questioning, the A-Ha! moments. I pray that my words be experienced as a healing, that no matter where you are in the world or where you are in your journey, that you continue to remember your presence is a gift, you are worthy, you are loved, you are seen, and your voice matters.
You are the medicine.
I love you.
Thank you for being on this journey with me.
In deepest gratitude for your presence,
~ M o l l y L u n a
